I’m taking the night off

While playing with my baby this morning I was as usual mentally thinking of my to-do-list for the night. Motherhood is definitely a full-time job that interlaps with another that starts after my boss’s baby’s bedtime. Usually baby falls asleep between 8 and 9 p.m. and then the marathon starts … Cook dinner, pump, gallop food while pumping, tidy up kitchen, manage my long and evergrowing to do list, cleaning Dog pee off floor, pump again attempt to blog, Rock baby back to sleep, pump again .,.. You get the drift. So while organizing my mental to do list, planning the Christmas Eve last-minute dinner menu, and attempting to occupy my precious (still aggressively teething) baby I decided that I’m taking tonight off. I even texted “date night” to hubby…. I don’t want to do a thing tonight just relax, of course I still have to pump but I’m sitting my post pregnancy oversized derrière down on the sofa (not the computer desk) and watching a movie with hubby. The world can wait till tomorrow, friends will still be on Facebook in the morning and my to do list will still be as long whether I check two things off or none! And there will be no picture with this post either cause I’m publishing from Shaun’s iPod so I won’t be accessing Picassa or making any pictures beautiful on Picnik … Good night I know I will have a great one!

Can I Blame it on Hormones??

Its 3 am and I just finished some must-do errands such as buying diapers online, folding baby’s laundry, preparing Caroline’s (our cleaning lady) to-do-list for tomorrow. I decided to give baby Amir a bottle before I go to bed so he doesn’t wake up 10 mins after I shut my eyes. So as I carry my sleepy baby and admire his angelic face it hits me – he looked grown up not so babyish anymore, his new spiky hair and his big eyelashes his pouty lips… his features are becoming clearer I can actually tell what he is going to look like as he gets older. Suddenly this surge of emotions takes over me! My baby is growing I had to hold back the urge of sobbing loudly. Don’t get me wrong they were happy proud mommy tears but the emotion was so overwhelming that my body started shaking as I tried hard not to wake my baby … What is happening to me? Could it be hormones? Can I actually still get away with blaming it on unbalanced post pregnancy hormones or is it just pure motherhood?